My walk with God has been a pretty bumpy ride. With twists and curves and choosing the wrong path multiple times. This is a little piece of my walk with God..
I always went to a Christian Church with my parents and loved going cause I got to be on the worship team they had for the kids. I had lots of friends at my church and didnt really have any problems with God..but I didnt really accept him into my heart. I moved out to Texas about 3 years ago and things went down from there..I stopped praying, reading my bible, and just really connecting with God. It stayed like that for a long time, it got even worse..I started listening to secular music, hanging out with the wrong people, doing things I shouldnt and sometimes even cussing.. It got bad, and I knew I had to do something but I didn't want to change. I didnt go to church for about 3 months, and I finally started going to church again. I started building a relationship with him but, I didn't accept him into my heart and let him reign over me and be by my side. He was there, but not with me.
I think what you call me is a fake worshiper. That's what I was pretty much. Some people are like that and I was kind of one of those people. I'd go to church and worship and tell everyone I loved God and then when I came home it was totally different. Im still trying to get to the point where I dont have to be a fake worshipper. I want God to be in my heart, I want to accept him as my Saviour. I've prayed over some kids in VBS a few times. Whether it was little things, or big things. It feels really good to do that and I hope that I can be a prayer partner someday at my church. I love working with kids also, so who knows! Maybe i'll be working with kids instead. But, for now im just focusing on becoming a REAL worshipper. Someone that doesnt just go to church cause they have to, someone that WANTS to go to Church..and loves worshipping God.
I'd love to hear your walk with God. Leave a comment and let me know. (:
-Joelle
I love your honesty, Joelle. Your journey with God has taken a huge turn. You may not be exactly were you want to be (I'm not were I want to be either) but you are pursuing God. The Bible says that if you seek after God, you will find Him. Keep fighting to be that real worshiper!
ReplyDeleteAsk and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
Matthew 7:7-8